So, take what works, trim back on what doesn't, or does too well, idk. Didn't know you were diagnosed that early or if that was possible.
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I didn't even know what it was or that I had it and was already diagnosed with it and taking pills for it until my friend who researches random disorders brought it up and then I asked my dad and he was like yeah
I miss dad
A lot
And I feel alone and hurt and betrayed and angry and guilt and I....
I read something long ago, just after high school, "The hell with the dead, let's start worrying about the living." Take the pills (why more than one, there should be a simpler regimen), stay straight. You have a nasty habit of going to shit when other people are stressing their own problems |:
If my sister hadn't raised such a stink here in her short stay, I'd bail and go to Colorado and see my friend >:( So she leaves teusday and I have to stay, after she's rattled the predators!
I'm sorry
Eh, I lashed out at you, sry.
I don't plan these things to 1-up peoples problems
At least I know how to apologize......even when its not really my fault
I know. I'll be glad after my sister leaves, get my life back, try to make sense of what she did while she was here... it's almost better over the phone, otherwise, she suffers from diarrhea of the mouth kinda.
Steven I wanna be emancipated ._. I'm disowning ya son!
You mean as in 'divorce a parent'? I would beat your butt and make you do more chores girl.
maybe i like those things!! D:<
nah im kidding
no im not
i dont even anymore -_-
I never thought of them as chores growing up, I saw how tired ma and pa were when they got home. I didn't get beat much |: Now with them gone it's a terrible sense of 'obligation', 'requirements' and bullshit like that, because I don't wanna move
My dad would NEVER beat me ._. Not even when my skateboard broke the windshield of the new BMW he got like the day before, or when I almost beat someone to death, or when I destroyed the back porch ._. Nothing ._. He just wouldn't talk to me for a while and I hated that a lot and he knew I did too
I would do chores because I felt bad for mumma and I actually liked cleaning because I'm a bit ocd
It's in the past now.
There's a post in progress
I'm almost to the point where I'm counting the hours lol. No more pee on the toilet seat, hair clogging the drain, or dishes cleaned with a paper towel (sponge may or may not stink of mold, and seep into her hands.. it's happened to me too, I just don't give a fuck)
._.
Ooo new post about moldy sponges? Can't wait!
If you meant I should write one..... don't hold your breath, could be a few days.
Nah my dad
Seems like a topic worth writing about. Good luck with that.
I can literally say everything because no one comes here or would bother to read all that shit lol
Hmmm, I'm beginning to wonder myself...... someone ratted out when my sister was going to be here, to the dirtbag real estate guy. Oddly enough, he seems the most capable to 'move' this place |:
Now my sister is throwing out some of my Ma's collected recipes :< I'm going to lock everything up, before she comes back for another trip, claim it as my own!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ok ._.
Less than 24 hours now, then I gotta get busy picking and selling!!!1
ok ._.
._. yeah well, it's hard to compete with the farmers where you live, and their stuff gets shipped and sold up here, pretty much everywhere. At least the stand owners have been good about prices (in the past). Sis says my cherry tomatoes are quite good ._.
i never had a sister ._. im not gonna accept whatever her name is as my sister ever either ._. my dads dead i have no connection to her anymore ._.
Family is who you love, I never let blood get in the way of that... dear daughter :)
Imma be honest here Steven cuz I love you ._. You're a lousy dad ._. My dad did a better job even when he thought my name was COCAINE
Aww, what?
:(
Its ok you don't even have kids of your own
There's only so much I can do online, and with the information you give me ._.
Eh you should pm me what you wanna know
But even then you don't need to know every detail to do fatherly things
I still feel like I got hit in the gut. Maybe I'm the kinda Pop that would've been good raising you, you never know. Guess I'm more of an uncle to you, like Uncle Buck or Uncle Ben, like so many called my Pop.
Close family friend perhaps ._. My dad actually knew about you lol
Oh, what did you tell your Dad about me, or did he check your account?
eh sometimes i tell him stuff and sometimes he looks over my shoulder while hes hovering after ive had a near death experience :P
I had the smae feeling about my grandpa not too long after he died. Must mean things were left unsaid, or things that were said weren't taken to heart. My Pop popped up a few times after he died... thank goodness it's better advice than when he was alive lol
no i mean every i almost died hed be clingy and stuff
VicariousE
Get a pill cutter then! Don't take the full amounts, you're only a little girl, why do you need precisely 5 or 10 mg of anything?
Happy-Little-Trees
Because my schizophrenia started when I was 4 ._. That's reeeeaaallly early ._. I should be getting it right right about now ._. And its intense shit when I don't take the pills ._. I annoyed and kept Nick up last night even though he had a job interview at 12 and it was shitty until this afternoon he finally convinced me to take the pills